Updating, what is that?

 
So as anybody may have noticed, this blog has been inactive for like over a year if not more... So I will try to explain shortly what has been going on in my life and such, will publish some photos etc. Though I won't go into details in some of the stuff. Anygays, let's begin!!


So yeah, this past year/ year and half has been really eventful for me. My boyfriend came to visit me to Finland on summer 2014 and I went to visit his place in Hong Kong in winter/Christmas 2014. We broke up around 6 months ago due to personal difficulties and such.

I got new pets and also lost some. I also have had animals here for a short while since they were my friends' pets and I took care of them for a while (on vacations etc). Right now I have: Sisi (my dog), Fattie (my hamster), Twister (my king snake) and also Donna who is actually my friend's hamster but will be living with me till she decides to go on. Right now at this second I also have a cat, Cornelius for some while as his owner is at Japan as an exchange student. I also have a female hamster with 5 children of hers since she got accidentally pregnant at my work place so I took her in for a while since my boss couldn't (she breeds animals so her place is already really crowded).

I also did have a tortoise called Little Paw but I found much better home for him so I gave him away. also I got him from his previous owner in hopes to find him a better place. I never promised a life-long home for him at my place.
Then there was Fatso, and angry little fella I got from my work place. He was a dwarf hamster that bit everything and everyone if they got too close. He passed away a month ago or so. Then there were two guinea pigs that were supposed to go to my friend but they lived with me for a week before my friend could come pick them up. They also were a rescue pets.
Then there was also Sir Hiccup Fancylegs. My Chilean Tarantula. He was a real charmer, being so gentle and nice. Sadly I also lost him around a month ago due to his age and molting. R.I.P all my loved pets.


Then there was the moment my best friend Sensu moved away from the city I live in to a city called Tampere. It's still rather close so I can go to meet her every now and then. Though I still miss her and how we could just easily meet every week. I also managed to broke ties between her and some of her rather abusive friends. So if you need to break your ties with someone, just befriend me. Haha...

The year 2015 has actually been so far really eventful for me. The summer especially. I visited many conventions, made many new friends and had lots of fun! I also went to Ruisrock and it was my first ever musical festival I've been at (I was one of the many workers there!). It was lots of fun and also met one old friend of mine there!

Also, just so that everyone knows. This sums up my whole year: PETO ON IRTI!!!!
So basically I'm still a huge Antti Tuisku fan and his music has improved a lot and he is more.... open in his songs. I love it.



Even though I have hang out a lot with friends, I still believe I don't have that many friends. I just get called out by some fellows or decide to invite someone over... though still I feel rather lonely on some times and I know I should be more socially active... but right now I can't. I'm still struggling with my anxiety disorder and depression (which have gotten worse).

That somehow enlightens you guys about my year or so... Though I am doing good. At least I still am alive. I am fighting with myself and sometimes I just lose hope and want to die. But I'm a lot better than I was months ago. I'm trying to heal... So the only thing I want people to give me is patience. To be patient with me being an awkward, unsure and broken human being. And also I will be updating this blog mostly of my personal thoughts, my cosplays and sometimes of some happenings in my life. And some texts will be in finnish, some in english. Please put up with my bullshit. Thank you and see you next time~!!